I have gone for years denying it I have even tried to run from it but yet the feeling comes and then it goes again. I have seen first hand the beauty of it and how it changes you, It has shown me that it has the power to make even the bitter taste sweet. I am convinced of its power this thing is very rare and unique in its own right the kind that is for me may differ from from your kind.
I wonder as I wait when will I get my dose questions develop and I ask have I missed my opportunity?
I am convinced that I have not but when it meets me I want to be ready I often wonder what will it look for, will it recognize me will I submit or will I run. The thing I am most ready to feel is genuine. Its value holds no means that money can buy it is priceless a timeless treasure.
I feel nervous at the thoughts of its arrival but I wait anticipating it. I can not say that I have experienced this before but I hope its all its said to be. Now that I write this I wonder am I ready to really face it? It I were met with this gift today would I embrace it? hmm I ponder and my answer is when will Love find me!!! Again I got that feeling......
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I am stuck not in a hard place but a uncomfortable place. In this place I am safe but but not secure I want more I long for it and there is this feeling within me that tells me I am greater than this and its only capsizing my abilities. I am ready I want to chase my dream but the problem is the dream is so big so bold I can hardly contain it. I am burning with the anger and frustration of getting to where I wanna be I know that in this world anything worth having takes hard work. I sometimes wonder if I have gone in the right direction I look at what I have true passion for and my current stance and what drives me do not line up. Where I wanna be is in a place where my skills are polished a place I naturally excel not one that bores me and makes me long for things and dreams hope for where I wanna be is a driving a force deep within me that I am impelled to follow I pray and pray and I feel the urge Lord help I don't wanna act to hasty or move to swiftly but where I wanna be I hope I get there soon be cause being here standing still is draining me. I will get there some how some way I am sure of it.